where to begin?

So overwhelmed, since before the holiday season. I've felt out of sorts and disconnected. I've been wanting to blog, for my own self-preservation, but where to begin? What's important? What's not? Would rather escape then face the mountain of things I want to do today, this week, this month, this year, this lifetime....ARGH!!!!

then I just decided....



...one day at a time. just do it. the more I delay documenting my life, the more likely I am to forget details that make my life what it is...rich, meaningful, memorable, mundane, worthy, what i want my kids to remember.

GO:

--Chargers: broken-hearted still. I really thought this was the year. Don't want to face the fact that this might be LT's last year.
--Conan: What?!!!! Barely had a chance to watch even a few episodes. Love Jay too, but...
--92078 to 92129: changed zip codes this month. Loving the commute, not loving being in complete disarray and feeling as though I'd rather sleep than deal with the storage space overflowing with things that could be donated, sold or thrown away. (one box at a time)
--sweet Sofia: so very anxious about upcoming meeting with teacher, speech therapist, school psychologist, resource specialist
--sweet Ava: a champ at the dentist. two cavities to fill. got her first haircut :)
--soon-to-be an aunt: so happy to spend more time with my five month pregnant sister and her husband
--loving parents: so grateful to my wonderful parents who do so much for us already; they keep adding things to the list of reasons to be so humbled by their generosity
--my loving husband who just turned 36 yesterday: never asks for a thing, just keeps giving, and loving. how did I get so lucky? (I take it back: all he wants is to eventually get a dog)
--brave mother in law: undergoing chemo with a smile on her face. she truly epitomizes the word selfless. to be more like her....
--boycotting American Idol: still love Paula Abdul (I'll probably cave once Ellen comes on)
--things are different: but instead of being sad about it, I have to look on the bright side and remember that there are great things to come.
--decisions, decisions: making a mental pros/cons list for switching to iPhone: newest pro > being able to use it as my iPod at the gym instead of carrying two devices.
--Everyone a Reader: meet the newest volunteer at Sundance Elementary. 45 minutes a week, the very least I can do
--nearing a year since Choice Center: have I lived up to everything that I've learned since then?
--nearing a year since my knee surgery, am I ready to run a marathon? (not literally, just figuratively speaking)
--ME! it's okay to take care of me! In fact, my family needs me to.

AHHHHHHHHHH....that felt really good. Some of the tidbits that I didn't want to forget to remember :)

Okay, I'm back....

4 comments:

gina*b said...

great GO list! you have a lot going on and it's nice to see it written down in reflection. sometimes, i feel so disconnected being miles away and the time diff doesn't help. but reading this makes me feel like I'm just two streets away again. <3

Joy & Noah said...

Doesn't feel good to get things off your chest! I need to do just that more often!

Ercon said...

2010 is off and running for you! Don't forget to breathe and take it all in despite the craziness. And yes, remember YOU because those around you need and want you there. :)

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